滿足

“Do you not see how necessary a world of pains and troubles is to school an intelligence and make it a soul?”
– John Keats

Great minds East and West all agree, this world is one of suffering and unfairness. We dry our tears hoping that tomorrow will be a brighter day, and if not, then the day after that. And when there is no hope left in this life, we put our faith in the life after, where the power of imagination allows us to create a world in which pain no longer exists and evil will not triumph with impunity.

Can you really imagine a world without pain? Without suffering? Where people live in perfect harmony and happiness? I cannot, because I am human. Humans are made to be discontent, to thirst for something more, and spend their lifetimes becoming something better. If not for himself, then for others. And with that thirst comes suffering, when we can never seem to achieve that elusive goal that makes us whole.

But I do think that’s a wonderful trait us humans have. For life would be so boring if everyone is happy with exactly what they have. Not wanting to know more, not wanting to experience more, not wanting to be more. Perhaps one day I will tire of this search, and just want to stop and rest. I doubt, however, that day will come any time soon.

忙得每天半夜下班的時候也并沒有覺得壓力大。只是心情一天比一天糟糕，要是有人問起，也說不出哪里不對。直到今天的deadline，做完最后的分析圖點擊發送，才終于能喘一口氣，真正輕松起來。

周末不小心把手機丟在朋友家。兩個人的時間碰不到一起，到昨天才去拿回來。雖然一直有些不安，最不方便其實只是早上沒有了鬧鐘。也不過是一年前的事，一堆同事們實在看不過我連吃飯都舍不得放下手機，與我打賭，若是可以一個禮拜在與他人交流的時間（吃飯，聊天，上班）不碰手機，便每人給我20塊。我咬牙硬是堅持了下來，自然是沒有收他們的錢，畢竟，是自己沒禮貌在先。如今想來好笑，哪來那么多等不及要說的話。

成長讓人懂得取舍。許多曾經以為離不開的，其實并不是我們需要是的。而那些一直在身邊未被珍惜的，不知不覺間竟是已經離我們而去了。

電腦跟Vista差不多年齡。聽說Windows 7好用許多，便準備趁感恩節假期裝一臺新電腦。熱心的朋友幫我挑選了最適合的配置。我不懂這些，問了許多傻傻的問題。比如說，mobo是什么，又，為什么不用graphics和video card? 我要看電影怎么辦？也難得兩個engineer不嫌麻煩的替我一一解答。算起來其實去買一臺電腦省時省力，以我的程度也察覺不出好壞。只是因為好奇，又或者，獅子座的好勝，一定要自己嘗試。

昨天回家的路上不小心走錯出口，才看見City Hall外頭已經搭起了漂亮的圣誕燈。今天第一天按時下班，高速公路上塞車塞得厲害，卻觀賞到夕陽下一群群候鳥編織出美麗的舞蹈。雖然下一秒我又將為逝去的和未曾得到的煩惱，這一刻，這些若不寫下來就會被忘記的瞬間，是我小小的滿足。

很喜歡OneRepublic的新歌secrets。可以放在repeat上一直聽。

httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Qus3ezCd1s