It’s hard to find friends who stay. Sometimes you find out they were not who you thought they were. Sometimes you realize you weren’t that compatible as friends after all. Sometimes you just grow apart.
There was this girlfriend, who helped me through a difficult time in my life. Then we went on a trip together and I realized we were so different, both in terms of what we wanted out of life and what we expected out of a friend. After the trip I gradually stopped hanging out with her, and never quite explained why. We still ran into each other once in a while, after all, the circle was small. Once in a while I would stalk her on social media. Her life hasn’t changed much, she still haven’t found what she was looking for, and I’m not sure if she’ll ever change her mind on what to look for.
I remember the last trip we took, and the conversations we had, and I’m grateful that we found each other when we did. Sometimes I feel guilty for abandoning the friendship. After all, she was there for me when I needed her, and perhaps some time later she would have needed me and I wasn’t there. Then again, at the end of the day, no one can be there for someone else forever I guess.
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